Slacking?

Switching your whole lifestyle takes a lot of work and can be trying.  I have felt like I have let myself down and that has been really hard.  Instead of jumping in head first, I should have slowly transitioned into this.  Eating strictly vegan can be very challenging.  Unless you want fruit or raw vegetables all the time, you definitely need to plan ahead and that isn't something I have gotten a complete hold on yet.  I love steaming veggies and my rice cooker but you can't steam ahead or you are losing vital nutrients.  I have also struggled with the fact that I haven't even dropped 5 pounds.  That is pretty disheartening when you completely change everything you were doing.  I understand there aren't immediate results but when you go from eating probably like 2000 calories a day or more of just junk and fattening crap to 1200 or less of vegetables and fruit, I would expect a little weight loss.  It has made me want to give up and I have had days where I just eat whatever because I am so defeated with the whole thing.  I don't feel like I have a lot of support either and not having someone eating the same with you makes it a bit difficult.  It gets daunting making two meals and then you have to have very strong will power to not want to give in to some of your favorite foods.

I love the benefits that come along with eating a more plant based diet, I just need to find my groove.  I need to find a way to ease into it and fight the cravings.  I am not sure if my body is actually craving these things or if just don't have the will power to not fill my mind with thoughts of what I think I am missing out on.  To find a happy balance would be such a blessing right now.